My kids didn’t want to come to the airport to say goodbye. “We’ll just give you a hug here, that’s good enough. We’ll make sure it’s a good hug.” Really! You’re not going to see me for five weeks and a hug at the door is good enough? I guess that’s what you can expect with teens. Even the dog seemed unmoved by my luggage and my leaving.
My husband called after dropping me off and said that he missed me already… After being together for 32 years when one of you leaves for an extended period, it’s like losing an arm. You feel incomplete. I have grown accustomed to letting my husband take the reins when we travel; I just go along for the ride. Now I have the reins….
I haven’t been away from him or my family for more than a week in many years. Before marriage, I travelled alone all the time. I would just show up at peoples’ homes unannounced and say, “Hey, remember me? I met you a few years ago and you invited me in for tea and cookies and told me to come back anytime…well here I am.”
Looking back, I can’t believe I did that, but how wonderful to live with such abandon! As we age we lose that ‘lightness of spirit’ and become more guarded. We try to control so many things in our lives. Look at my calendar and you will see my life scheduled a year in advance….. This trip alone is my chance to let go of my acquired need to control and let life take over.